Good Morning – I’m Still Here – Until I’m Not

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Credit the mom with saying, “I’m still here!”

About a week before she wasn’t.

I have many years to go for that, so I hope, but this has been a tough winter.

The worst part, perhaps, has simply revolved around my own confinement to quarters (the mansion inside the cabin inside an apartment, etc.) by way of old ambitions — I thought I would have a few new short stories by now) — and online habits (those BackChannels numbers are climbing).

My kind of milestone: after having inherited my father’s half a dozen Le Carré titles, I’ve completed the entire shelf, from the hardcover combining Call for the Dead and A Murder of Quality to A Delicate Truth (2013).

Missing: Smiley’s People.

Incoming: The Naive and Sentimental Lover.

I appreciate my comforts — and pray to God, even with a life made small, which one sees reflected in the snapshot photography — that I and may place hold up (health and finance) a good while longer.

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When I created three monstrous persona, I didn’t know that any one of them — writer, musician, photographer — and its permutations would have been just fine.  These days have got me fairly involved in political (“conflict, culture, language, psychology) blogging and chit-chat, which goes on all day and could be bolstered — the books are here already — by related reading long into the nights.

Still: I like to entertain.

Great reading — I wish it were writing, but, alas, it’s reading — Janet Fitch’s Paint It Black.  Fitch is a creative writer’s writer, a gold standard for the gritty, and for being that, she may be as tough on her readers as she is with her characters: Paint It Black, which was casually browsed off the second-hand shelf — at first it catches the eye, then it calls one back, and then it goes home for fear that someone else might grab it if you don’t: how we choose our books is as mysterious as love — cut a little close to home with the secrets, the controlling mother, the diverted life, the kind of inclinations and intelligence, also, that derail everything or, perhaps, misses getting on track.

Paint It Black turned out a dangerous book here, and much appreciated.

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Le Carré as a model?

It’s either too late for me . . . or, again, it’s about money and time and obligations linked to competing interests or projects, i.e., practically living on a Facebook account with social interests or conversation closely aligned with BackChannels.  To shuttle the mind back to creative writing entails a change of habit within an otherwise outrageously perfect lifestyle for the ambition.

Where I’ve left off is somewhere within literary impressionism (this blog has a short-short story category and one or two have that telegraphic and you-fill-it-in style).

Returning: journaling in notebooks; free-writing on foolscap — the pages go into a box.  If it wrote in that manner every day, it would evolve; dabbling: back burner — screwing around, basically.

Snow days suit reflection, and I / we (mid-Atlantic states) have got a good one for that.

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Half-Winter Haiku

An old bear
In hibernation
Drift long time

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One haiku
Remembering all
Branches weep

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Throttle back
This old engine’s gears
Snow falls bright!

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Old ink pot
A drifted day too long
–di-strac-tions

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A white sky
Bare branches sway:
World, pass by

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Parker 45 Deluxe With Chrome Cap and Gold Nib and Trim

Parker blue
Forty-five classic
Scribbles nice

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Milk white sky
Branches reaching bare
Springtime sleeps

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Chocolate
 n      i       g      h      t
s    n   o   w   y
t   h   e
Steaming

Taste stillness

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Sleepy time
Warm woolen blankets
Scraping plow

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Too quiet
Too separated
Departure

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Mist frozen
Smoke snaking through woods
River dark

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On we go
Winter bright with snow
Skidding now

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Still on ice
Apartment quiet
Hunting mind

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So quiet
So peaceful, restored
Curtains close

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Empty head
Quiet mind. Winter.
Color me.

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Moon full bright
Stars dazzling night white
Back to sleep!

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Penmanship
Ink smooth indigo
A go go!

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Quiet night
Absent of close friends —
All but God

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Blue white gray
Drifting powdering
Falling snow

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Crescent, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, January 4, 2014

Crescent, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, January 4, 2014

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Snapshots – Snow Day – Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, January 21, 2014

Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, January 21, 2014

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Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, January 21, 2014

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Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, January 21, 2014

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FTAC – Trend Shift –> 19th Century Modern

I’ve grown to have mixed feelings about high-tech, which perhaps may come with age and associated conditions, not the least of which has involved “de-defragmenting” time in the manner encouraged by all things gadgety and web. In “19th Century Modern” style, I want to read books and write with fountain pens on foolscap. There’s a developing healthy market for that “abandon-the-keyboard!” crowd, and I think that side’s in for quite a bit of unexpected revenue.

In the background, I’ve been looking at, um, fountain pen porn: i.e., monolithic, limited purpose, expressive, gorgeous, varied, eye-catching, eye candy industrial art.

It started with the purchase of a bottle of ink, Aurora black, and the sudden appearance of Fahrney’s Pens advertising beside my Facebook experience.

I started a wish list.

It’s six pages long, give or take, as I type.

And I figured out I could buy just about anything on Amazon.  Of course, the retailers have figured that out too, making Amazon the storefront of stores, which I don’t mind.  It’s the one-click purchasing capability that scares me.

“Windows shopping” online is what it is in its real space guise, i.e., a form of dreaming, entertainment, escape, and recreation.

I’ll post more on this topic, a little at a time, but the inspiration for today’s remark on Facebook was First came the artists, then came the hackers: The strange history of London’s own Silicon Valley – Feature – TechRepublic, n.d. — at least I don’t see one, and I am tiring of the practice in the latest journalism of downplaying the date of publication as “evergreen” seldom means (although sometimes does) “eternal”.

For fountain pen geeks, mine in use: burgundy Sheaffer 440 with a fine point; a medium point Parker 45 Deluxe with chrome cap and gold clip, girth ring, and nib.

The Parker has been with me for 45 years; the Sheaffer represents a pen I lost by tossing a sport coat over my shoulder — it fell out of an inside pocket — while crossing Nebraska Avenue on my way into work at American University (Washington, D.C.) after lunch.  God bless the Internet for a) making identification of the pen possible and b) for making possible the purchase of the same pen model from “new old stock” — same pen, never sold, only cached somewhere and dredged up by Peyton Street Pens — and purchased with that scary “one click” Amazon routine.

As came out while chatting with a friend: a problem revolving around a pen, much less the want of one, is not a problem.

For wisdom, well, there seem to me very few wrong things in life, like losing something thirty-five summers ago by removing a jacket and flipping it over a shoulder, that can be put right for about $50 and a click of the mouse.

They’re very pretty, these fountain pens — not mine, which are rather plain for the field — and rather like guitars: for a given application, one only needs one — let’s not go to the human analog on the that — but one may nonetheless feel compelled to keep looking and liking and wanting.

I should think browsing an entire category online a fine and entertaining (and informative) way to avoid actually writing something paper worthy.

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FTAC (No! Not Here) — A Note About Art and Writing

My take on fine art may be different as I’ve dicked around and through at least three, with each bringing some milestones or returns. The creative writing ambition returned $20 from The North American Review. 🙂 In photography, I have one $35 per hour customer, which is continuing. In music, I’ve stalled, as usual, but saw a couple thousand in 2012 from a bar gig. In all, I believe there is a span from doodling, drafting, sketching, shooting-playing-writing freely and then fashioning off of that creativity more demanding (artisanal) manufacture. The character of the demand on mind and behavior varies across and within each endeavor, but in that comes the excitement or stimulation that makes process rewarding.

What I’ve found most difficult is focusing on thin funding and absent of institutional integration — but in that is the definition of a freelance or independent writer, photographer, and musician.

I know I have been quiet for a while, but I’ve had to wrench around some habits and relationships for sanity — and, always on my mind, creative writing.

“FTAC” on another of my blogs stands for “From The Awesome Conversation”, which term I invented to represent the “chatyping” taking place in my main Facebook community (https://www.facebook.com/jsoppenheim).

The inspiration for the conversation was a “meme” passed along from The Writer’s Circle by Qanta Ahmed, a fabulous creative writer, essayist, and reporter: it was Anaïs Nin’s observation, “We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect.”

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As I’ve been at this a while (and have a related M.A. in “English Language and Literature”) and have been able to indulge in distinctly different arts, I’ve come to regard each as its own space, largely, rather than purely analogic: nothing requires that one transit experiences, ideas, or inventions created in one medium into another although that might suit more coherent myth building.

Does the “jazz guy” on stage have to be that too at the easel?

I don’t think so, but some might disagree.

A creative “vehicle” that takes off, of course, might inspire its one design — the content of the artifact — to be interpreted and represented in each field for medium, but I haven’t developed that “vehicle” — that thing that makes a million dollars and produces the book, the movie, the opera, the dance, the mural, the statue, the jazz piece, and the restaurant franchise frenzy — so I don’t know.

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Outside / Inside

Snowy Path, Winter Afternoon, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland,

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Reading Corner, Winter Afternoon, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryl

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Inverse, Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013


Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013

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Inverse, Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 1

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Inverse, Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 1

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Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013

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Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013

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Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013

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Walk Into the Woods, Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013

Walk In the Woods, Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland,

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Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013

Snow Day, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 14, 2013

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Suncatcher,Balcony Garden Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 9, 2013

Suncatcher,Balcony Garden Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, Dec

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Tracks, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 8, 2013

Tracks, Hunter Hill, Hagerstown, Maryland, December 8, 2013

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